I am down. I am real down. I …
I have set an intention for February of self-love and acceptance.
I am someone who has constantly struggled with confidence. Take a girl with a disability who is pretty but not stunning and could use to lose a few pounds and you have a serious case of self-depreciation. However, after some major digging, I have realized that my biggest insecurity has always revolved around my disability.
It’s winter – well sort of. I’m in North Carolina which means spring and winter weather often occupy the same week. But I digress.
This post is going to focus more on my disability than any of the others before. Let me correct that, this post is going to focus more on people’s perception of my disability than any of the others before.
I think this post has been brewing in my mind for a while. I am still not 100% clear about it, but I am clearer than I ever have been. Maybe tomorrow I’ll be clearer still.
Several years back, I remember asking a friend about her blood type. Sidenote: I have absolutely no idea why we were talking about this. Maybe I thought I would need a kidney one day and wanted to keep my options open.
editation is all about teaching ourselves to live in the moment. It’s all about relinquishing control over future events and letting go of the past. It’s about observing ourselves and our surroundings and just letting it be. And through the calmness, you will find peace.
So here I am, starting my journey and planting the seeds. Right now, all I see is dirt. But I can say that I have started to feel the earth shift slightly.